On the Death of a Soldier
Make no mistake: he is dead. He does not sleep.
The world has ended. The cosmos has collapsed
If God would send his Minister of State, to give us
His Excellency would put a human soul
then we would know for sure: would know a man
Then making garbage of young men would not
until God’s envoy makes his case, and answers
Elegies for my Father
In what sense did he own his world?
The drystone walls were written in his hand,
the tight barbed fences finished in his style.
He made a hen and chickens on the crown
of a borrowed hawthorn hedge. The estate
was an exhibition of his work.
Things, labor, horses, all belonged
to a totter-up of rents: the chestnut candles
and the dark abundant chestnut loam
and its forbidden harvest, all accounted for
to a renter of cold rooms and common stairs.
My father worked alone, in company
with sun pools in the woods, or shivering
birch leaves, or the early snowfall, apparitions
of his freedom, enticements to his folded self.
He seemed to hoard the place’s melancholy.
In the midst of life, he talked of heaven.
“In the sweet by-and-by,” he softly sang
—he had no ear—to the wheezy organ.
“We shall meet on that beautiful shore.”
One day, called home from school, I heard
my mother say, “He’s gone to heaven. He
was suffering, but now there’s no more pain.”
There was more than loss, even in the first
few moments. “Plus ça change,” an older head
might have worded it, “he’ll be a handyman
to the proprietor of worlds.” Or, “Let him steal
a barrel of this painlessness, and bring it back,
to oil our bones, and flush the cancers out.”
I know geraniums:
quick reddening into urgent flares,
continuous dying day by day.
My father taught me not
to hack away the still half-living heads,
but to venture thumb and finger in the fire
and carry off the little witherings only, burned
from scarlet to dry blood,
so that the tiny, ready blood-drops underneath
would be fulfilled, their guttering postponed.
Not universal death, but compost: throw
the dying on the compost, my late father said;
and sure enough in season it would mingle
with the airy soil again, and make geraniums.
My father’s earth is warm; there is still
continuous dying and living there.
James Graham is a retired English teacher and Scotsman who has published two poetry collections, in 2000 and 2007. His work has also appeared in a number of anthologies, including Scottish Poetry (Edinburgh University Press), as well as in various print and online magazines.